Pete Davidson says overcoming childhood trauma was a journey.
On the Real with Jon Bernthal podcast, The comedian, 29, opened up about the ups and downs of celebrity navigation. He’s learned not to correct internet narratives about himself because he can’t control them, and to focus on things he can control — like surrounding himself with people who love him. Now that he’s done that, he has another, even more unexpected dilemma: He’s happy — and he’s not used to feeling that way after “living in discomfort for so long.”
“It’s strange to be happy,” he said Saturday night live said alum. “I was at home the other day talking to my girl,” Chase Sui Wonders, “and my friends and I were like, ‘I feel freaking weird like something’s wrong. They say: ‘What ?’ I said, ‘Nothing’s wrong.’” He said he started crying because, in his life experience, he fears that “something will be ripped out” when things go well.
Davidson said he does a lot of “trauma therapy” to process these feelings that stem from “PTSD.” [post-traumatic stress syndrome] from childhood” after his firefighter father Scott Davidson died on September 11th.
“The phrase my therapist and I agreed on is, My dad told me he was going to pick me up from school on 9/11,” he says, going back to the time when the Staten Island native, NY, just 7 years old “I was picked up by my mother. She didn’t tell me what’s going on for about three days.
The King of Staten Island star went on to describe the horrific way he found out. He said his mother told him he was grounded and not allowed to watch TV. He knew he was doing something wrong, so he figured it would be okay to steal some TV.
“One night I turn on the TV – I just saw my dad on TV. They say, ‘These are all the firefighters who are dead,'” he recalled.
Davidson didn’t know how to talk to his mother about it — or process it. In addition, weeks after the terrorist attacks, there was still hope of finding more survivors in the rubble.
“We didn’t know he was dead for about three weeks,” he said. “They found people, they got people out of trouble and there was only one kind of hope. It was just ups and downs and no one knew how to deal with it.”
He doesn’t blame his mother, Amy Davidson, with whom he remains close as a permanent roommate, even among his own SNL and film fame.
“My mother was fucking 30, [which] I will soon,” he said. “I wouldn’t know what the hell I should do. So when I get older I’m like, ‘Man, my mom was great. She really loves me.’ … No one knew the right way to go about it, and whether that’s right or wrong, it still messes up the kid or whatever.
Davidson, who has a younger sister Casey Davidson, said his PTSD was mixed BPDor Borderline Personality Disorder, left him afraid of being abandoned.
“You know – Dad says I’ll come and pick you up. He doesn’t, for life. I’m just like that… I don’t believe anyone,” he said. “And I’m trying to learn how to believe people. And Hollywood isn’t the best place to learn that skill, dude,” he said, laughing.
While the industry, which is notoriously tough, “is the worst place for me to grow … I love that shit,” he said of being a working actor and comedian. “I will do my best and just keep going. But that’s what it comes from and that’s why I have a hard time trusting and believing people and it’s been a problem my whole life.”
He said he worked so hard to reprogram his brain and shut out insecurities, and admitted he self-harmed from childhood until a year ago.
“It’s still pretty bad when either everything’s great … or it’s the worst thing in the world,” he said of his mindset. “I had to learn that if one little thing doesn’t go right, it doesn’t mean the whole ship sinks.”
Davidson said it’s hard to get used to what people say about him, especially criticism. For example, he referenced his father in his standup routine — and people have called it exploitative. He doesn’t see it that way.
“People will say, ‘Oh, he probably just talks about his dead father all the time,'” he said. “It’s like, yo, I made two jokes about my dad in a span of about 15 years. To pretend I’m just like, ‘You feel sorry for me. My dad…” This is just bullshit *** and it makes me feel so small and shitty.”
He added: “I’m just trying to crack little jokes about him here and there because I like to keep that memory alive. My father was a great guy. Why is this a damn problem? I get defensive. It’s my family.”
On a lighter note, he said he’ll never get used to the public interest and criticism of his love life.
“I’m in my 20s and I’ve been dating people and for some reason it’s very crazy and interesting to people,” he said. “I don’t think it’s that interesting. I’ve been in show business half my life. Almost 14, 15 years on a national TV show, and in 12 years I’ve dated about 10 people. I dress it up. I don’t think it’s really crazy, but it seems very interesting to some people.”
Davidson, whose exes include some very famous women like Kim Kardashian, Ariana Grande and Emily Ratajkowski, said his love life has become “all that anyone would talk about and it’s confusing,” he said, “because I’m not on Instagram.” . I’m not that into social media. i am not flexible I met these people I dated at work. I haven’t been in any DMs. Nobody was in mine. I’ve worked at one of the five Hollywood epicenters where you meet people, and that’s just who I’ve worked with and who I’ve been with, and that’s how it happens.”
Davidson has been linked to Wonders since late last year and she is part of the happiness he is experiencing in his life right now. The pair starred together in the 2022 film body, body, body.
If you or someone you know is struggling with self-harm, call or text the National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) hotline at 800-950-6264, or call or text 988 .
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